Goodbye my friend

As I sit here and ponder about my life and its meaningless existence - I have to question if I am thoroughly analysing it to the best of my ability and as the way my being should exist? Always finding it difficult to find the right words to explain my feelings, feeling indifferent about life, expecting more emotion fun, love, stimulation, whatever .. All I know is that now I feel nothing. It's time to start feeling something. It has been a couple of months since I felt the terror of panic. It's time to say goodbye to my blocker and embrace my being - both good and bad.